I love the Harry Potter series more than anyone else in the world does.  From the very beginning of my reading journey, I have definitely related to Hermione Granger (no, not just because we both have frizzy brown hair).  Thank goodness the good people of the Potter films cast Emma Watson as Hermione.  From a very young age, she made sure Hermione stayed the amazing role model that she is {I'm sure I'll write a long post on the amazingness (yes that's now a word) that is Hermione someday} which I am very thankful for.  Now that she is all grown up, Emma is one of my most adored role models.  I love everything she stands for.  After reading this awesome interview that I highly suggest you read, I fell in love with Ms. Watson even more than I thought was possible.

Here are a few highlights:

1. She's the reason Perks happened.  The Perks of Being a Wallflower was a rejected script when it came into Emma's hands.  She was able to use her persuasion to make sure it was put into production (and thank goodness it happened, that movie is amazing).

2. She understands the perils and torture that is high school and general social awkwardness.  Although busy with the Potter films, Emma did attend a high school for quite some time.  In this interview she talks about how she sees how hard it is to fit in, and although she was Hermione Freaking Granger, the fame must have isolated her from her peers.

3. Writing and journals are her outlet. I am so thrilled to see that Emma Charlotte Duerre Watson keeps ten diaries at once just like me.  I keep one for writing things down that I observe, one for random thoughts, one for feelings, one for life events, one for dreams, one for sketches and paintings, one for more art, and one that I put random things in.  And the way Emma described how these journals help her is exactly how I feel.  We are connected.

4. Insecurity.  Insecurity is a recurring theme in the lives of everyone, seemingly particular teenage girls.  Emma talks about her insecurities as a person, not a celebrity.  The way she is so down to earth and how she admits to feeling unsure about herself is a refreshing thing to see in anyone, and so rare with someone so famous.

Yes, Emma Watson is my biggest girl crush.  She is just so beautiful, inside and out. It's nice to have this real life Hermione to look up to. <3 How can you not ADORE her?!

Painting :)

So I've rediscovered another one of my methods to put off doing homework until the last moment possible- painting!

I've been doing watercolor for as long as I can remember.  My grandfather, a professional watercolorist,   used to let me play in his studio whenever I visited.  Vividly I remember arguing with my sisters as to who got to paint first; being the oldest I often was able to claim the stool before they could reach it.  Under my grandfather's guidance I would sketch out a little drawing before proceeding to my favorite part, being the actual paint.  Adding color to the little world I had just created on paper was just so exciting....

Today my family was out and the weather was just so lovely that I decided that there was nothing to do but paint.  I never claim to be a good painter, but I enjoy it immensely.  Pulling out my paintbrush and palette brings me back to the days of painting with my grandfather, making it bittersweet (but less bitter and more sweet usually).  And although I'm not a particularly skilled artist, I just love painting.  I love the feeling of  creating something.  Creativity makes me feel closer and unified with the world around me, and most importantly, myself.  If anyone is reading this and having a bad day, GO PAINT! Or take a bike ride! Or play the violin! Whatever makes you happy:)

YAYYY! REUNITED WITH MY PAINTS

People (me included) need to do more things that make them happy.  A break from stress is always so nice to have.  I know I have exams coming up, but rather than crazily studying, I am outdoors painting and blogging (wait is that a good thing actually? Maybe I should be studying... but you get the point). (I use to many parentheses- sorry- but they're so much fun)

A haphazard little workspace- yes the foot is a part of it

This photo seemed a lot more interesting when I was taking it...

So this little guy decided to model for me- what an angel 0:)

Quick pansy sketch.... if you squint you can sort of see it.... look really hard....

Yayyy for functionally disorderly workplaces!!! (It's a nice way of saying messy)

Later on I painted my favorite song lyrics to "Young And Beautiful" by Lana Del Rey on a piece of paper because it was stuck in my head and I was sick of painting flowers and statues. 

**in beautiful dramatic voice** WILL YOU STILL NEED ME WHEN I HAVE NOTHING BUT MY ACHING SOUL? I really like the phrase "aching soul"

As I packed up my paints, I ended up pondering: Why do I have so many acrylic tubes when i barely ever do acrylic?! I don't even know HOW to properly paint acrylic... 

Yet i have two shelves in my paintbox dedicated to them.  Where did i even get these?! Sigh.  Mysteries of my life.

So this concludes a very long, hopefully not too dull post on my painting excursion.  I'm starting to really like this blog thing.  Typity typity type...

Questions/An Intro of Sorts

The question has been asked since preschool.  What do you want to be when you grow up? My original answer, fairy princess (naturally), has changed through the years.  It has evolved through marine biologist, CIA Agent, and actress.  These career ideas have mostly been inspired by books I have encountered and devoured.  I think I would love to see my words devoured by the world someday.

Now, when asked what I want to be when I "grow up" (not quite sure if that'll ever happen- adulthood seems so dull), I tend to say author.  But as Charlie puts it: "I really wanna be a writer but I don't know what I'd write about."

What do I want to write about? What am I, an absentminded teenager, doing with a blog?

The answer: I don't know.  Life is strange and beautiful and such a confusing tangle of emotions and ideas and I don't know how we stay afloat.  But we do.  So I'm going to blog/rant.

(Wow this post doesn't even make any sense... Oh well.)

Hello, I am a girl. I have opinions on life. Here they are.